Self Doubt

Oh self doubt. Self doubt visits me often. I would love to say I’m the most positive person but when it comes to me and my work I do a lot of back tracking.

I’m not ready, I’m not good enough, I don’t have developed skills enough to be selling ‘completed’ paintings, etc.

I said at the start of this year that I wanted to focus on honing my skills, and I’ve done a few redditgetsdrawn portraits, but when it comes to abstract art it’s very hard to ‘practice’. It’s just paint. It doesn’t look like anything so how can I practice and get better at it? That’s the negative talk happening. I recently bought Color: A Course in Mastering the Art of Mixing Colors to ‘practice’ with colours and potentially get ideas for future paintings.

I stumbled upon Lilla Rogers website Make art that sells and she has a great video series. One of which is about art careers and how you can stay motivated. I also bought the book Art and Fear: Observations on the Perils (and Rewards) of Artmaking , I have only just started it but it already hits on the fear artists feel when we critique our own work: Is it any good? People won’t want to buy it.. etc. I look forward to finishing this book and being able to conquer my fears of artmaking and produce more work.

Have you had any doubt making art or in general? What helped you get over those voices in your head?

2 thoughts on “Self Doubt

  1. Thank you for this article Victoria. It rings so true for many creatives whose livelihood is so central to their very being. I myself wear my heart on my sleeve and am aware of my own confidence gap between the perception of not being able to achieve my dreams and the reality that I can achieve it and more.

    I think the cure for doubt is having a really supportive community around you to help prop you up. Yes, we all need to just keep pushing and realise that we have nothing to lose by trying but having our own warriors really helps.

    Good luck achieving!

    1. Thank you very much for your comment!
      Yes I have heard having a ‘tribe’ or passionate fans is central to achieving big things. Sometimes I feel like I am writing to no one but it does take time be be found and heard by the right people these days with so many other people to compete with!
      Instead of trying to do things other people may like to see, I am trying to calm down and find things I really like to doing which will translate to finding people who love the same things. It’s a slow road but I think I have the passion to do what I love.
      (I love your blog theme too – very stylish!)

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